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Heart of a lover

Posted in poems with tags , , , , , , on January 23, 2016 by Charles Bernard

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Come home my handsome lord
The moon is out to seek lovers
Come! let’s delight in its light
Forget the warm bosom of virgins

Nectar is sweet only for a while
Honey soothes the body and mind
Leave the drunks at their table
Come feast on a royal table

Forget philosophers and their words
Would they ever understand Love?
Come and hear of your future glories
In my bosom your happiness lies

Even without riches of gold
Or the features of your body
I will be by you my love
Steady and strong

Smiling and telling you
Sweet life stories all barren years
Till the rain returns
To our heart’s delight

You are my moon and my bloom
My rain and my rainbow
My tears and my laughter
My strength and my love

 

First kiss

Posted in poems with tags , , on January 8, 2016 by Charles Bernard

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I remember that night well

It still makes my head swell

Though many years ago

Still vivid like a moment ago

It was night’s depth

By two white candles lit
Surrounded by empty desks

And mesmerized by books

Breeze came without warning

Then thunder and lightning

Off went the candles along

Sure the night would go wrong

She sighed, casting her eyes around
I inhaled her whole now

The shampoo, deodorant, her fragrance

It filled my senses

There was a strong arousal

That got a little sensual

As her little fingers found my hair

Emptying my lungs of air

Her soft lips found me first
It was our very first

The rain always reminds me
What It felt like to be you and me

Diary of an urban man 7 “silhouette”

Posted in diary, short stories with tags , , , , , , , , , on April 15, 2013 by Charles Bernard

Dressed in a black suit hovering over a beautifully dressed Julie exchanging vow, everything was perfect. Our parents elegantly dressed were seated in the front pew, family and friends filled every corner, there were smiles and camera clicks, happy faces and plenty hug exchanges. I loved the moment I wanted it to last forever but then it started falling apart, first the smile on my bride’s face was fast turning into pure rage, her eyes starting glowing flames of anger, I stood lip tight, trying to understand the situation then it happened pawww! It was a heavy slap and another was coming when I suddenly woke from this dream. My whole body was covered with sweat, every where was silent, I punched a random key on my phone to provide illumination. I couldn’t stand the confusion any more I had to speak to Julie.
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Heavens know I loved you more than life it self, I built my thoughts around you and centered my feelings on you. Beckley I would gladly give up every life I ever wished for to spend this lifetime by your side, I gave you a chance to be my god, but you took the way of mortals, if you had erred a thousand times I would gladly forgive you and take you back because that is love and I believe in love, but you sort to kill our love even before it had a chance to blossom, how could you hate me that much and come to seek me out again? How can I trust a man who would flee my bed before dawn? What do thou seek which I have not offered, what does a woman posses which I lacked? Even if there were flaws, am I not a mere mortal? How could you not see past my little mistakes? I think about you and I want to slap you over and over again till you are right back to your senses and become the man that stood solidly behind me for six years, if we could work it out throughout those years when we had nothing what went so wrong now? There were tears in my eyes because I knew I had hurt a man’s ego I didn’t plan to slap him but I couldn’t stand his constantly bumping into my life and messing things up. I wanted him to feel how hurt I was, the pain I was passing through and how lost I feel on a path we should be walking together. Every woman always had that one guy and mine would always be him, come rain come sunshine.
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Spending five hours at Julie’s gate wasn’t what I had in mind when I woke up this morning; I was living more on reflex than a well thought out plan. Every single thought of mine was directed towards her it was as though she was a viral living in my blood stream, It was a feeling I would had cherished years back when we did almost everything together but a lot had happened and transformed us into new individuals, living separate dreams which have only succeed in driving us more apart. My feelings for this woman is always a tornado when it comes I can’t control it, ours has always been aggressive in nature but she betrayed my trust and hence quenched the fire but recent events is fanning that ember again and against my will I was succumbing if not how else could I explain waiting at her gate for 5 hours, too drunk to drive away, too proud to walk in. I want this but there has to be other ways to go about it.
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Jide was the last person I expected to see at my door bearing a bouquet of red roses which smelt nicely, ordinary I would have kept the conversation short and signal him to leave but I didn’t, in fact I couldn’t, I wanted company and he made a perfect one today even though he wasn’t my perfect choice, I wanted someone else. His jokes were so funny and precise I couldn’t stop laughing, he was his old charming self. it happened so fast before I could grasp the tempo of the moment, Beckley walking in on us, Jide holding my hands and telling me how much he wished we were still together. For a moment I wished both men would just disappear, Beckley shot angry eyes at Jide before turning and leaving, jide stared back almost questioning his presence. As he banged the door after him Jide started to ask me a question, but before he complete his statement i was already telling him it was best for me if he leaves too as I would like to be alone now. Hours later I was alone relishing the moment….
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I was out by the beach throwing pebbles into the water body, I felt so disappointed so crushed so cheated, as a kid whenever I had worries I couldn’t conquer by merely getting over it, I often seek solace by water bodies where I’d be throwing pebbles into it’s heart it took away my burden, I felt much free and better. She must have been standing there for minutes without me noticing Valerie had always been a mystery to me, her going and coming. She was still every inch the beautiful woman that walked out on me in Paris. Hi Baby you look gorgeous, your husband is really taking good care of you, thanks Beckley but it doesn’t always take a man to look gorgeous these days it is a mind thing, and you look so worried and lost what is eating you away dear, nothing really I’m just thinking about some major life decisions. Well that didn’t sound like you but I won’t push it, so how is life? Besides the few moments of genuine family time life hasn’t changed a bit since you left me in Paris, I didn’t leave you, you pushed me away. I wasn’t even sure I had you Val, you were going to get married and all that, I couldn’t see the future. You could have created one if you truly loved me, I went to Paris with you to make sure I wasn’t going to make a mistake leaving Joe for you, I gave our love a chance but you couldn’t man up when it mattered so I made a choice. What do you mean I couldn’t man up? Wasn’t I by your side questioning, trying to understand the road we were traveling, I went to Paris a confused man Val. Confused if you loved me or not? Well all that is in the pass now let’s leave it buried there. I have got to go Beck take good care of you. I wanted to say something, to stop her from leaving not yet but I was too lost for words, I merely opened my mouth and shut them again as I watched her leave, her hips swaying from one side to the other, I swallowed hard down a dry throat.
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When I entered my living room hours later I was confronted by a huge surprise, that I needed a drink to be sure it was reality, Julie was on my sofa sipping an orange juice and watching a program which she turned off immediately I walked through the door, at first I was surprised how the door I locked was automatically unlocked without any sign of forced entry. Then seeing Julie answered that very question then set another in motion, What was she doing here? The first instinct I had was to walk her out, I didn’t care for anything she had to say it was over between us and I wanted her to understand that but I couldn’t break the tensed silence that hung between us, I Walked over to the bar and poured my self a glass of Jack Daniels. I sat directly opposite her and we shared minutes staring at each other, there was longing in her eyes which in turn dissolved my anger, I just came to say am sorry for slapping you Beckley, I really had to deal with a lot before coming to this conclusion of clearing the air between us, oh ya I understand totally especially when that lot has to do with frolicking with another man, Jide is not another man, he is my friend. A friend that ends up in your pants right, Yes I use to be involved with him like you were with that your doctor babe but it is over between us, when did that happen? Few hours ago you were right in his arms. It wasn’t what it looked, or I was half blind Julie. Beckley you have no right to question my personnel life, at least not now. Okay, am not going to question anything anymore, am merely going to move on and this time for real. And you’re Child? Am not sure am the father. You know what Beckley fuck you, I really regret coming here, it tops the list of my worst mistakes. Hush boo I should be saying that cause I thought we could work out our differences when I walked through your door today too. You have no right to get mad at me Julie because I don’t think you love me. Beckley I have every fucking right to walk into that kitchen, boil some water and pour it on you because you cause me so much grief than I require in my life while you go on living you life like I matter not. How can you accuse me of not caring? When you know I’d stop at nothing if I had a chance to love you again, people don’t ask for a chance to love someone, love is not a sermon to be read. You show it like a miracle it should manifest to the admiration of the whole world. When you’re ready to love again I’d know. Go night Beckley.

You and me

Posted in random with tags , , , , on February 22, 2013 by Charles Bernard

You and me

we are in love
so much we live within us
your are me and i you
my world built around you
my thoughts and dreams
those of you alone

High above the world
existing on another plane
like two lemon roses
towering above a sea of red petals
leaning towards the setting sun
side by side supporting each other

I can never mock your feelings
Even when the seem so stupid
your smiles shall be my happiness
And your tears my sorrow
It’s you who now lives in me
And my heart beating in your chest

To the world it is complicated
To us it is a simple cause
through my eyes you see the world
And in your eyes our unending path
from here to the world beyond
Time and space can’t make our feelings fade

Ours is like that of the master and a humble servant
But we are both servants
At the feet of a higher master
We understand our places perfectly
And do our duties delightfully
Without jealousy and envy

We will always disagree to agree
We will always forgive every err
And together nurse our every wound
Till we are whole again
For we know there is no ending
You are me and i you

My birthday is tomorrow so i have decided to upload some of my early poetry work way back…

Posted in poems, thoughts with tags , , , on September 27, 2012 by Charles Bernard

A Quiet Moment

The moving sea appears motionless and

the air ceases to exist

A poem awakens in my mind and

favorite blue song on my lips

Time matters not any more as

the world before me stretches far beyond

Puzzled thoughts twists free as

my mind transcends to great beyond

Life moving slowly light like

sun rays depart the sea surface

Neither sadness nor happiness is felt but

an inner peace witnessed

A quiet tap on the shoulder and

all my illusions shattered

Just once more the word moves on…

Yesterday

Though it is gone I still hold unto it

Away with you gone I still keep the pictures

In my thoughts and in my bed

It was good to me cause you smiled in them

It was good to me cause I had happiness

I had you and you had me

It is this world you left me behind in…

Poor Love

Much happiness and laughter no foundation

Coated with much lies and betrayal

Glitters like a fake diamond

Shatters like a glass plate when it hit rocks

The innocent partner languishes

The other shine in the light

People start to ask questions

The answer is poor love

The First Day

As we walked down the street i felt a new beginning

In your eyes i saw both weakness and strength

The world stood still when you held me in your gaze

The sun set in your eyes and the moon inflamed it

Your arms was warm and comforting

Even when you dazzled away i still saw you

Your name was on my lips when i awoke the next day

An African mother Advice

Posted in poems with tags , , , , , , on February 17, 2012 by Charles Bernard

An Africa mother’s Advice

Tonight witches shall gather
Soon the sun will go to bed
Ndubisi my son come home
Come lay in your mother’s arm
Let my love protect you
Under my bosom you will dwell
Till dawn in my warmth

Come my son
The moon is full tonight
Let me tell you life stories
The morals you must hold
Close to your heart all your life
Let them guide your thoughts
Leading you through life’s path

My son
You’re a prince
Like an ant be wise
Let your judgment be sound
Let your heart be filled with mercy
Give alms to the poor
Give food to the hungry

Son
Fear the woman
Her love is sweet
Her heart is dark
Keep your strength
For the love you shall find
And you shall be fruitful

My dear son
I have watched you grow
Your temper is quick
I fear it would destroy you
Hold it in check
Say but a few words
Let them be your bonds

My son
Your are my strength
Do not forget me when am old
Remember the breast that fed you
Let my old bones cling unto you
Let my dry skin feel your warmth

My son soon
I will be gone from here
Uphold your father’s name
Let not his legacies die
Do me proud in your deeds
From the spirit land I will smile
For even in death I will watch you

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